This poem reflects the brief moment in my mind between seeing my husband lying on the floor and my realization that he was gone. It was most likely a second or two, but it felt like an eternity. Time stood still, but not like it did when we would kiss…no, the world stopped…then time fell away and I was left to pick up the pieces.
The moment I lay eyes on you, I knew just what to do.
My breath caught in my chest and I paused, listening for your voice.
None came.
I needed to find you, to get to you, to save you…where did you go?
You were lying there at the bottom of the stair, so helpless.
I wanted to run, to rescue you, to catch you before you fell.
But it was me who was falling.
The abyss was calling and I tripped…..
Stumbling, reeling, out of control, like Alice in Wonderland, tumbling down the rabbit hole.
If only I could get to you in time, if only I had less stairs to climb to reach you.
I knew that if I made it, you would be ok, but time stopped and I got lost somewhere along the way.
You’re gone and now I DON’T know……..anything really…
