PinnedDear Me from 2016Wow, you just stepped out of a shit-show, huh? I don’t know how we got there, but I’m glad it’s over and we can focus on ourselves now. However, I need to warn you. I want to give you some information about the path your life is about to take…Addiction10 min read
4 days agoMy StoryMy story is one of pain, trauma, abuse and neglect. It is also one of hope and wonder, longing and joy. But most importantly, it is a story of resilience and a refusal to be drawn down by the generational curses I inherited. It was you that gave me the…Love5 min read
May 6DenialDenial is one of the primary tools of addiction. Sometimes disguised as hope, often stealthy in its infiltration of one’s mind, always deceptive in its story. “It’s not that bad, real drunks don’t have a job and are never sober” “It could be worse, at least he’s not hitting you.” …Love5 min read
Apr 27Old Habits Die HardI’m sitting in a meeting this morning, feeling good about my potential for productivity today. This is a big deal right now because I’ve been paralyzed for a week. Restless, depressed, anxious, exhausted, weepy…you name it. I’m listening to the speaker and notice my hands feel dry. A typical result…Widow2 min read
Feb 7How to Survive GriefPick up your feet The opposite of love is not hate; it is grief. Because grief is simply love with no where to go. A lifetime of love that would have been poured out onto the one you lost, but now is seemingly trapped inside. It’s trapped because it feels dishonorable, at first, to pour your love for the one…Grief2 min read
Jan 31The HouseI saw you standing in front of a house with beautiful windows and doors. Sunlight streaming through the curtains warming the hardwood floors. It was safe and warm, or so that it seemed. I began to look closer, inspecting the seams. Many people were there, moving in and about. Happily…House2 min read
Jan 25Agitation and DiscontentI’ve often been encouraged by therapist’s to write stream-of-consciousness when I’m feeling something or some way that I can’t shake. Naming the emotions, musings, or drawings that come out of me. Here are my musings for the day, stream-of-consciousness, no editing, no filter. Enjoy. I don’t want to be or…Stream Of Consciousness2 min read
Jan 16Do you still love me?Do you still love me? After all of the shame and pain I’ve painted on the walls, does it scare you to see me walking the tightrope of life? Are you afraid that I will fall? Can you still love me? Can you show up when it’s hard? When my…Love2 min read
Jan 2Writing my vowsIt’s January 1, 2022. A new beginning. A fresh start. A blank slate, so to speak….right? That’s what a new year symbolizes. Well, the Universe will reveal what she has in store for us soon enough. I am happy to announce that I rang in 2022 surrounded by people whom…Self3 min read
Nov 18, 2021This is where it lives now: Final PartI woke the kids at 6:45 am. It was a Wednesday and they would be going to school. I would go to work, and we would all attempt to have a normal, undisrupted day. I first took them to my ex-husband’s house where I knew they could find clean clothes…Grief9 min read